I Will Be Here

Tomorrow mornin' if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here

If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
'Cause I will be here

I will be here...
When you feel like bein' quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winnin' and losin' and tryin'
We'll be together
'Cause I will be here

Tomorrow mornin' if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I'll be here

Just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for these years
I will be here

I will be here....
You can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you

And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you mean to me
I will be here

I will be true
To the promise I have made
To you and to the
One who gave you to me

I will be here

And just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for these years
'Cause I...
I will be here....
We'll be together

'Cause I will be here

Cure

When I was younger, a lot of things used to facsinate me. It was probably because I couldn't comprehend the mechanics and technicality of the subject. Therefore I was amazed and curious on how could such things happen magically before my eyes? It lasted till one point where it all became clear to me as I begin to appreciate the significance of causes of the end results, I become bored. You do whatever it takes, as much research and practice and later on get sick of it after mastering it. I can't seem to find an undying passion it all the things I dwell in. Is this how life is suppose to be?

How am I going to save myself from this disease? About a year ago, I figure out how to slow down that process by living a more balanced life. That means, doing everything moderately with a more balance or fairly distributed amount of time to each activity I partake. It helps get thru the day better, less excitement but a longer lasting sense of curiousity to continue what I do. The results are moderate but it gets better as it goes and most importantly, the passion last longer. But ultimately, the primary question still bounces back to me, what is the one thing in humanity that bring me to devote my life for it?

I am still looking for the cure.

I Can't Make You Love Me

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head

Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something that it won't
And here in the dark,these final hours
I will lay down my heart; I will feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me when you don't.

I'll close my eyes cause then I don't see
The love you don't feel when you're holdin' me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it that won't
Here in the dark, these final hours
I will lay down my heart I will feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me when you don't

Just The Way You Are

Don’t go changing, to try and please me
You never let me down before
Don’t imagine you’re too familiar
And I don’t see you anymore

I wouldn’t leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far I took the good times,
I’ll take the bad times
I’ll take you just the way you are

Don’t go trying some new fashion
Don’t change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care

I don’t want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you

I said I love you and that’s forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are

Drenched

When minutes become hours
When days become years
And I dont know where you are
Color seems so dull without you

Have we lost our minds?
What have we done?
But it all doesnt seem to matter anymore

When you kissed me on that street, I kissed you back
You held me in your arms, I held you in mine
You picked me up to lay me down
When I look into your eyes I can hear you cry for a little bit more of you and I
I'm drenched in your love Im no longer able to hold it back

Is it too late to ask for love?
Is it wrong to feel right?
When the world is winding down
Thoughts of you linger around

Have we lost our minds?
What have we done?
But it all doesn't seem to matter anymore

When you kissed me on that street, I kissed you back
You held me in your arms, I held you in mine
You picked me up to lay me down
When I look into your eyes I can hear you cry for a little bit more of you and I
I'm drenched in your love Im no longer able to hold it back

Reunion

We were young, we were trained to combat,
Selected amongst little innocent ones,
Not knowing any other life out there,
Sleeping in brown canvas tents spending our youthful years,

Sweating under the hot broad daylight,
Swifting across the wild hills and jungles,
Moving thru the swamps and muddy lands,
Lighting up fire when sun goes down,

Sometimes we would hear sounds from the woods,
The fury beasts near us with its murderous intent,
Growling as loud proclaiming its prowess,
I pray to the Lord as I shut my eyes,

The light calls out for the morning sun,
Bringing out the colours of this serene place,
Gazing at your picture I miss you so much,
You're the only one, my reason to live,

I'll brave thru the sands and storms,
Whatever hurdles that barricades my way,
Crawling thru the dry fields of land mines,
I'll march courageously with you in my heart,

I remember the day when we were young,
The men in greens took me faraway,
Our tightly held hands had parted ways,
Since then you were always on my mind,

Our distance nears the enemies base,
An alert that the war will soon begin,
We bottled our message to our love ones,
And built a mighty forge before our enemies,

We camped, we patrol, we waited patiently,
Taking our turns enduring the sleepless hour,
The intruders came and blood was shed,
We defend fortress with all our breathe,

Our long fought war has finally concluded,
Lives lost and the shall be remembered,
The cemetery plays a mellow song that day,
Our friends have ascend to the heavens above,

I knocked and ring your doorbell that day,
The doors unclosed you couldn't believe your eyes,
You are so beautiful, I'm captured by your smile,
Our tears reunite after waiting all these years.

HTC One X

Kinda sick of iPhone 4s due to all the restrictions that users have to face. Therefore, decided to get something else this time, here's my new toy HTC One X. Ta da!!!

Every single screen is customizable to your liking, add whatever you want and tweak it!
Here's how my lock screen looks like, Ta Da!!!

 This is the security pattern screen, Ta Da!!!

 And my home screen, Ta Da!!!

 

My calendar screen to set my schedule and appointments, Ta Da!!! 

My Twitter screen... erm.... ignore Einjill, she's probably high on drugs lol... Ta Da!!!

 

My Music playa... with Sound Hound embeded.... Ta Da!!!

My Malaysian map guide, GPS, road block checker, cutest road bible ever... Ta Da!!!

My new games applications, here's one of it...money money money the Coin Dozer, Ta Da!!!
 

Here's a 8 Mega pixels quality picture I shot of Aeris after cleaning up her home, Ta Da!!!

And last but not least this is the moment we all been anticipating....  my movie for tonight!!! Total Recall!! Ra Ta Daaaaa!!!!

There's many more stuffs to play about.... I shall explore it in the coming days.

p/s: Dear reader, don't forget to get one too ;P

Beautiful People

It's my last big breath what you want me to do?
When you act all cool like you already knew
then i'll be stuck here cold, just waiting it through
'till your heart starts beating for that somebody new
You know that it's true
 
Cause it's beautiful people like you, who get whatever they want
and it's beautiful people like you, who suck the life right outta my heart
and it's beautiful people like you, who make me cry
'cause nobody else could be nearly as cruel as you
  
It's a wicked game that you making me play 
Where I call back home as your walking away
then it's all quiet clear what you want me to say?
But you'll be so long gone if i ask you to stay

Nobody else could be nearly as cruel as you, as you

I Don't Need This

Why is it when I voice out my problems nobody seems to care? They think I'm joking? That I'm saying it out of pleasure? Bloody inconsiderate. I'm already in the midst of falling sick, screw this. I got no idea how am I gonna go thru work like this. Wish to move out soon some day, save me.

Insecure

Emotions... are complicated psychological experience of a person mind's condition influence by external and internal influences. Whatever a person do, say, encounter, the environment, are all capable of affecting a person's emotions. It can drive the state of your mind and feelings from a simple line such as, "Dude, your fly has been opened for the past 3 hours" to something irresponsible like "Honey, sorry I've forgotten to fetch the kids to school today" to something as cruel as "The management has decided to let you go, there's 3 hours for you to leave this premise".

Emotions can be prolonged or temporary. Imagine having a serious physical injury to your face via a car accident, it will most likely take a long time to heal the internal emotional damage caused to oneself in some cases, permanent (i.e. PHD students?). So what do I mean when it's temporary? After a long day working in office, you drove thru the jam and finally got home. You parked your car, grabbed your working stuffs, keys, bag and head into home. Strangely you noticed from the windows that, the lights was turned on and as far as your memory is serving you at its best, it was lights out before you left home. When you opened the door cautiously, your house was filled with people, your girlfriend, friends and family singing you a Happy Birthday song! Well, one of the form of temporary emotions could be a surprise, does it make sense?

It came across my mind of the person who once desired to established a New Order and take control of the world in his palms, dreaming of the days where only absolute Nazi German hegemony in continental Europe. How does Adolf Hilter felt like whenever he killed someone? Satisfaction? Guilty? Hilarious? or emotionless? I wonder could someone be in that state of mind, where there is no feelings involved in the things that he does and what actually led him to be like this.

In my personal conviction and experience, a person's will will drive ones emotions depending on how strong the desire one has to succeed. And the results? People will behave in a certain manner as a results of these emotions such as crying, depressed, laughing, fighting and what not.

Perhaps many will often pop up questions of how to cope with all these emotions especially the negative ones. If you're feeling suffocated, it might be wise to get some air out of the busyness, crowd or probably somewhere away from town, a trip or a holiday to clear off what's clouding your mind. If you're feeling blue, be patient let Monday pass and it should be fine the next day. If you're feeling bored, read my blog! Some find peace of mind by catching a movie, listening to music or seeking a religion. Everyone has their own means and ways to deal with their emotions.

Tonight, I'm a felt insecure and these feelings has been kicking in all around me thru out the day. Here's how Between the Lines defines insecurity:

1. Not sure or certain; doubtful: unemployed and facing an insecure future.
2. Inadequately guarded or protected; unsafe. A shortage of military police made the air base insecure.
3. Not firm or fix; unsteady: an insecure foothold.
4.
a. Lacking stability; troubled: an insecure relationship.
b. Lacking self-confidence; plagued by anxiety: had always felt insecure at parties.

And I've just found my cure, by simply talking to you. You know who you are :) Amazing.