Itchy Hands

I've added an application on facebook. And I wanted to try it out. I've clicked on something without knowing what it does exactly. @.@ Ah.... can't sleep now. My itchy hands! Super shy now.

Still

Tmrw I'll be worship leading again. Can't wait, kinda excited. Suprisingly my 2 weeks plus of non stop coughing was miraciously healed this morning when we practiced our worship songs. Praise the Lord. I'm pretty much into this song, Still. It comforts me, I will soar with you above the storm. Those who wanna listen to the responsive song tmrw can ring me up, can sing live to you.

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

Walk This Life With Me Again

I walk into that dark alley alone, surrounded by orange beams. I walked and walked, an old lady passed by and said, "Poor boy, he was too drunk to noticed his car was actually parked at the other side". I turned imediately, changed my direction and headed towards my car. I realised I was deceived by the the world of lies, the world that was polluted by satan. I cried, "Lord, let me trust you again like I did". Please forgive me, I was blind but now I see. Jesus, walk this life with me again.

Merry Christmas

This is it, celebrating the birth of Christ at home. Remembering Jesus while drinking hot milo. Sms friends and half of them forward me the same msg. So not creative. Went to church before that. Clock strikes 12!... 3.... 2..... 1... Merry Christmas! Sleep...

Back Home

Got back home from NLDS 2007 hosted by AIESEC yesterday. Made lots of new friends, had fun and learnt quite a bit. What inspired me most is the energy and courage that these group of people brought and spread it around. It's the first I've been to and truly truly a great motivation. Next stop, I'll be off to Life Game 2007 camp in a day or two.

The Riddle

There's gotta be something more than the middle,
I'm trying hard to understand,
Gotta be something more than a riddle,
I'm trying hard to understand,
Trying hard to under, trying hard to under,
Trying hard to understand.

Will be heading to genting in the morning after dance practice and then a 5 days camp!

Disappointed

Sometimes I think, what would it be like if I didn't met my ex-s and people around me? They changed me a lot. In a good way. Now when I look at my friends, I just can't accept the way they do things. At least not to that extend. It upsets me, I'm disappointed. I don't think they should treat friends like this and can be happy about it.

Alone

Sometimes, I rather be alone. There will be no conflict, no one will judge me, I don't need to care about their feelings, I don't need to listen to their bullshits, I won't feel hurt, I won't need any honesty from them, no lies, no hard feelings, no backstabbing, no problems, no disappointments, nothing. I'm only human. I will get tired of trying my best to be nice to people around. Those few best friends I made, I'm really thankful to have you guys. But sometimes, I rather be alone.

Anberlin - Symphony of Blase

Are there no shadows where you are?
I can see everything is day
Problems that you try to hide away
Pushing me aside (You're pushing me aside)

Could the winter calm come twice?
Could your heart seem so cold tonight?
There's no substance somehow isn't right
It's killing me inside (It's killing you inside)
Killing me inside

I don't wanna be where you are
I don't wanna be here even now
I don't wanna be by your side
Something isn't right
Something isn't right

This is our last goodnight
Say what you will
Say all that you can
Words have no meaning
When I've seen where you've been

This is our last goodnight
Say what you will
Say all that you can
This is our last goodbye
This is where love ends

I assume I have to write it wrong
How could you watch and since forgone?
Does what we've done ever really belong?
You're wasting me away (I feel so wasted away)

God if you can hear me out alright
Please take these feelings for her inside
My chest hurts when I breathe tonight
It's wasting me away (You're wasting me away)
You're wasting me away

I don't wanna be where you are
I don't wanna be here even now
I don't wanna be by your side
Something isn't right
Something isn't right

This is our last (This is our last)

This is our last goodnight
Say what you will
Say all that you can
Words have no meaning
When I've seen where you've been

This our last goodnight
Say what you will
Say all that you can
This is our goodbye
This is where love ends

Drops From Heaven

Clouds embrace the world,
Moaned, turning to grey,
Drops from heaven multiply,
Tears reuniting with the rain,

The leaves of the trees,
Bristled against the wind,
Children stopped their game,
Creatures running to hide,

Alone in the middle of the street,
Gazing upon the blurry sky,
The downpour stole my shadow,
Washing away my sadness,

There's no more substance within,
All thats left, an empty body,
A rotten heart, a broken soul,
A wound frozen by time,

I will carry on this journey,
The winds of fate started blowing again,
Guiding me to my destination,
A missing puzzle yet to complete,

I used to be protected by you.. love,
Shaded by your umbrella,
Pointed to where the sun once was,
It's too late... I'm all wet now.

Stay With Me

I remembered you beloved Pegasus,
My missing wings, where are you?
Can you hear my solemn cry?
I've been waiting night and day,

Bring me to the peak of the mountains,
Fly me across the seven seas,
Over the rainbows, above the clouds,
Together we'll drink water from the streams,

We'll look up for the night skies stars,
Let me in to your fantasy,
You're my best friend you've always been,
No one will see things the way we do,

Take me to your secret place,
A hiding place only we will know,
Allow me to hug you tight,
Rest on you for just one night,

Tmr will be the dawn of a new battle,
Lend me strength and fight with me,
Entrust me faith like you always did,
Victory shall ours till the last drop of blood,

Take me home when the trumpet has sound,
Peace has come, the battle is won,
The mist has cleared, the blue sky is here,
I've kept my promise, dear beautiful smile.

Do you believe in miracles?

Woke up this morning. I saw my grandma, eating biscuit while drinking her milk. My dad told me yesterday, the two tumour in her was gone. The docter confirmed it after the second check. No one knew how it happened. I felt so happy. I do.

Peace

I'm home alone, standing in front of my house gate. Looking at the grey cloudy sky. Perhaps it's gonna rain? Listening to Jay's piano.. that's how I find my peace today...

Deep In Thoughts

Feeling a little lost lately, perhaps I'm wasting too much time. It doesn't matter if no one understands. I don't care, really. I shouldn't let my guard down. Perhaps it will make a better me. Help me Lord, I pray.

Sick Cycle Carousel

I still love this song a lot, Sick Cycle Carousel. Everyday is like a cycle, in a year, at least 250 days we would be repeating the same thing. It's sick, a sick cycle... it's a routine. I don't want my life to be like this forever. I often gaze into the evening sky. Trying to look whats beyond those clouds. Trying to picture my life in these 10 years. What will I become, what will I do? Will I ever find the things I wanted in life? The meaning of my existence.. has to be more than this. More than whatever I'm doing now.. a soon to be revealed... mystery.

The morning due,
Marks the beginning of a new day,
The northen stars have long gone,
Giving birth to the sunlight,

The morning glory creeps,
Holding tight to anything it could,
A ray of light shinning to the fields,
Giving joy to the farmers,

The light breaking thru the clouds,
Embarking its journey to our motherland,
Rise and shine my friend,
For the sun is smilling for you today.

Have a Happy Sunday.

Fearless

A man who's inner one is stronger than the world, what else should he fear?

Shattered Dreams

Eyes wide open, where am I?
It bleeded, painting the ground,
Paranoid is whats left inside,
The evening.. soaked in red,

Lying awake helplessly,
Cold, no signal of life,
Trembling with fear,
Shivering in darkness,

I scream, calling out your name,
I tried to get to you,
But there was no sound,
Or any sign of you,

It was just about to begin,
The sunlight taking control,
Giving life to every soul,
Is this the end of everything?

Tears running dry,
Unbearable pain, undeniable truth,
My eyes are shutting slowly,
I can only hear my breath,

That evening.. where are you?
I can't move, I can't talk,
I can't breathe.. it stopped,
My heart is pumping no more.

The Grey Heart

Where is the my sunshine?
Do I have to wait for tmr again?
When will the light come out and play?
My heart is striked by the thunderous storms,

Lying on my bed, looking at the numbers,
Will I wake up will tmr ever come?
The clock ticks my life away,
Ticking my conciousness away,

Where is my summer breeze?
Do I have to wait again for another year?
To blow away all my mellow,
Swallowing all my regrets and sorrows,

Where is my emotions, smile and tears?
Winning means nothing anymore,
The sky has lost its colour,
Mourning for the death of an angel,

Dear Goddess of Victory where are you?
Where? where is my summer pig?
Ah.... she's smilling to me,
Right here reading this.

Hello Alth...

City Lights

I had a glimpse of the city lights just now of Bandar Puteri in Puchong from the hill side. It was beautiful and it just calms my heart. Awesome view. Sometimes I just wander how cool is it to be able to fly above the city below the clouds at night. It was raining and I made my way back home from Qian Wen's house after a long day revising. Talk, study and ate a lot. I'm kinda stone now. Should be calling a friend in a while. Signing off.

Living Reason

You still remember the dream we had that day, don't you?
You are my dream, you are my friend,
We just gotten started, you were my long lost friend,
It's time to get moving,

Everyday lit up by the shine ahead,
I wanna see you, it lights my soul on fire,
But now we bid farewell to those fun days,
To be the future, I'll try to over, that's why I'll dream on,

I'll go the distance,
Gazing at a sky so full,
I'm just now starting,
I'll use my greatest power,

Thank you my friend,
I haven't forgotten what happened on that day,
You are my dream,
Next time I'll protect you my way, the distance.

Love Songs

Love is powerful. It can change someone, break someone or even make the person stronger. I've been watching a couple of love movies and love songs lately. I watched part of The Notebook. Its a great movie, about this couple who are so crazy over each other. They fought and love each other so much. Bitter and sweet. I stopped watching it halfway just right before the sex scenes. Wasn't too comfortable watching it in front of my family. Will continue the other half soon.

I've been listening to this girl, Janice Wei Lan. Such an expressive, gentle and lovely voice. Right Rowena? ;) Meet Yin Teng today during lunch with Evon and Ying Kai near Mentari. Went to Pyramid after that to catch a movie with Evon. Resident Evil: Extinction. It was ok, if you don't mind violence and bloody scenes. That lady just blast every zombie heads off like water melon squashed to pieces. Pyramid has expanded their mall, with Pyramid 2 it's much bigger and the new shops are pretty cool too. Went into Billabong and I had my eyes on a few stuffs. A jacket and a polo t-shirt, kinda pricey so I guess I have to wait.

Janice - Love Me Accapella

The way you make me feel so adored

Wish you'd bring me candies when I feel lonely
Dream that you were my husband-to-be
In 365, all I ask is one, name it after me

Wish you'd write my name on your favorite palm tree
Look in my eyes, love is all you can see
Night and day I dream that things are the way before
Will you love me more

Where, when and why did you make me cry
Loneliness has become another part of life
Tears running strong and angels have gone
Don't know how to carry on

Baby I need you now
I need your arms to hold me tight tonight
Please turn the lights down low
And feel my body glow, whisper and flow

Baby I need you now
I need your strength to hold me down tonight
The world is out of sight
Cause you are all that I've been searching
For the way you make me feel adored

Welcome

Welcome to my space. This is it, the birth of my new blog. I left it all behind, I'm letting it all go, the past. It will be buried somewhere in my memories. I watched Serendipity this evening. Recommended by Jamie. It's a story about two souls destined to be meet each other again after a strange, unforgettable encounter during christmas. "Serendipity is an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident" quoted from dictionary.com. Special and rare, good fortune. They played this song during the credits, its been a while since I last heard of it.

Evan And Jaron - The Distance

The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away
I crawl up in the corner
As I watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time you're comin' back

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm callin your name

But I can't take the distance

I still believe my feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm callin your name

I brave fire and I brave rain
To be by your side I'd do anything
I can't take the distance

I will go the distance
I will go the miles
That's how much you mean to me'

Cause I can't take the distance
I can't take these miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take I'm calling your name
I can't take the distance

It's hard to remember
As long as you're away
When I find solace
There's only one way