Alone

Sometimes, I rather be alone. There will be no conflict, no one will judge me, I don't need to care about their feelings, I don't need to listen to their bullshits, I won't feel hurt, I won't need any honesty from them, no lies, no hard feelings, no backstabbing, no problems, no disappointments, nothing. I'm only human. I will get tired of trying my best to be nice to people around. Those few best friends I made, I'm really thankful to have you guys. But sometimes, I rather be alone.

Anberlin - Symphony of Blase

Are there no shadows where you are?
I can see everything is day
Problems that you try to hide away
Pushing me aside (You're pushing me aside)

Could the winter calm come twice?
Could your heart seem so cold tonight?
There's no substance somehow isn't right
It's killing me inside (It's killing you inside)
Killing me inside

I don't wanna be where you are
I don't wanna be here even now
I don't wanna be by your side
Something isn't right
Something isn't right

This is our last goodnight
Say what you will
Say all that you can
Words have no meaning
When I've seen where you've been

This is our last goodnight
Say what you will
Say all that you can
This is our last goodbye
This is where love ends

I assume I have to write it wrong
How could you watch and since forgone?
Does what we've done ever really belong?
You're wasting me away (I feel so wasted away)

God if you can hear me out alright
Please take these feelings for her inside
My chest hurts when I breathe tonight
It's wasting me away (You're wasting me away)
You're wasting me away

I don't wanna be where you are
I don't wanna be here even now
I don't wanna be by your side
Something isn't right
Something isn't right

This is our last (This is our last)

This is our last goodnight
Say what you will
Say all that you can
Words have no meaning
When I've seen where you've been

This our last goodnight
Say what you will
Say all that you can
This is our goodbye
This is where love ends

Drops From Heaven

Clouds embrace the world,
Moaned, turning to grey,
Drops from heaven multiply,
Tears reuniting with the rain,

The leaves of the trees,
Bristled against the wind,
Children stopped their game,
Creatures running to hide,

Alone in the middle of the street,
Gazing upon the blurry sky,
The downpour stole my shadow,
Washing away my sadness,

There's no more substance within,
All thats left, an empty body,
A rotten heart, a broken soul,
A wound frozen by time,

I will carry on this journey,
The winds of fate started blowing again,
Guiding me to my destination,
A missing puzzle yet to complete,

I used to be protected by you.. love,
Shaded by your umbrella,
Pointed to where the sun once was,
It's too late... I'm all wet now.

Stay With Me

I remembered you beloved Pegasus,
My missing wings, where are you?
Can you hear my solemn cry?
I've been waiting night and day,

Bring me to the peak of the mountains,
Fly me across the seven seas,
Over the rainbows, above the clouds,
Together we'll drink water from the streams,

We'll look up for the night skies stars,
Let me in to your fantasy,
You're my best friend you've always been,
No one will see things the way we do,

Take me to your secret place,
A hiding place only we will know,
Allow me to hug you tight,
Rest on you for just one night,

Tmr will be the dawn of a new battle,
Lend me strength and fight with me,
Entrust me faith like you always did,
Victory shall ours till the last drop of blood,

Take me home when the trumpet has sound,
Peace has come, the battle is won,
The mist has cleared, the blue sky is here,
I've kept my promise, dear beautiful smile.

Do you believe in miracles?

Woke up this morning. I saw my grandma, eating biscuit while drinking her milk. My dad told me yesterday, the two tumour in her was gone. The docter confirmed it after the second check. No one knew how it happened. I felt so happy. I do.

Peace

I'm home alone, standing in front of my house gate. Looking at the grey cloudy sky. Perhaps it's gonna rain? Listening to Jay's piano.. that's how I find my peace today...

Deep In Thoughts

Feeling a little lost lately, perhaps I'm wasting too much time. It doesn't matter if no one understands. I don't care, really. I shouldn't let my guard down. Perhaps it will make a better me. Help me Lord, I pray.

Sick Cycle Carousel

I still love this song a lot, Sick Cycle Carousel. Everyday is like a cycle, in a year, at least 250 days we would be repeating the same thing. It's sick, a sick cycle... it's a routine. I don't want my life to be like this forever. I often gaze into the evening sky. Trying to look whats beyond those clouds. Trying to picture my life in these 10 years. What will I become, what will I do? Will I ever find the things I wanted in life? The meaning of my existence.. has to be more than this. More than whatever I'm doing now.. a soon to be revealed... mystery.

The morning due,
Marks the beginning of a new day,
The northen stars have long gone,
Giving birth to the sunlight,

The morning glory creeps,
Holding tight to anything it could,
A ray of light shinning to the fields,
Giving joy to the farmers,

The light breaking thru the clouds,
Embarking its journey to our motherland,
Rise and shine my friend,
For the sun is smilling for you today.

Have a Happy Sunday.

Fearless

A man who's inner one is stronger than the world, what else should he fear?

Shattered Dreams

Eyes wide open, where am I?
It bleeded, painting the ground,
Paranoid is whats left inside,
The evening.. soaked in red,

Lying awake helplessly,
Cold, no signal of life,
Trembling with fear,
Shivering in darkness,

I scream, calling out your name,
I tried to get to you,
But there was no sound,
Or any sign of you,

It was just about to begin,
The sunlight taking control,
Giving life to every soul,
Is this the end of everything?

Tears running dry,
Unbearable pain, undeniable truth,
My eyes are shutting slowly,
I can only hear my breath,

That evening.. where are you?
I can't move, I can't talk,
I can't breathe.. it stopped,
My heart is pumping no more.