Dear Beautiful Star

The very existence of you,
Taught me how is it like to fall in love,
You had my eyes all on you,
Catching me into your spell once again,

You rest above the skies,
Along the lil bright shinning stars,
You seem unreachable,
I'd still look at you everynite,

Sadly, I have not much to offer,
Nothing but my unconditional love,
I'll do anything for you,
For as long as you'll be happy,

I feel like dirt sometimes,
Not being able to be who I dreamt of,
But those days will come in faith,
This is an oath to myself,

Below the skies on ground zero,
I swing alone feeding the birds,
My lil messengers to wish you peace,
I hope I can protect you,

I pray for you quietly each day,
A wish made to the heavens,
Even if the clouds cover my sight,
I'd still look at you everynite, beautiful star.

p/s: dedicated to Rainbow

Ferrari

York Hong's dad just bought a Ferrari! I'm still shock since I see him yday and the car in the jockey. He said he's coming to church with it this Sunday. I wanna ride on it. OMG-NESS! I wanna call Uncle Ten daddy wei! haha..... jk. I woke up with Teddys today :')

Birthday Bash

Thanks everyone! For coming yesterday. Although I didn't remember what happened, but I know what happened haha... Fanny was the photographer gurl, Sui Lynn & boy party crasher, John Paul bouncer wannbe, Janson & Simon Chan naik miang that night, Felicia got guys asking me about her: you still owe me your poem card :'P, Raymond & YK idiots keep forcing me drink, Libby chiller, Poh Leen called me drunkie monkey, her sis Twincy said I was not bad ooo haha, the rest and Cathy, thanks... :') So many couldn't turn up :'( Pictures are in my facebook. Kinda lazy to post it up here. I'm officially 23!

Excited!

I feel happy tonight. Probably cause of the meetings with friends, they make me laughed, really. The jokes, memories and crappy moments together thru out the years. Some of the misunderstanding I had was cleared, thanks to some friends who hear me out these few days and H.B. for explaining, hugs. Right now I'm hours away from my birthday bash, really excited. I know friends won't let me go home tonight walking straight, but its ok. As long I get the "bear" and have 15 mins of you, everything's alright! Bring it on! Thanks Miss Bee Bee, weird name or.. unique lol, but you saved me in a way, see your brother tmrw with the item. Thanks Andrea, for your wine... will slowly "tiap". J and C (H.B.), you girls, sigh, none of you are bad, it's really sad to see you guys like that, I hope things will get better. And to Shaun, although we have not spoke to each other for 10 years plus, I still respect you for who you are, don't let our older generation spoil our relationship. I remember those times you shout and call out my name when we were kids and played together all day long, our blood ties will always stay the same. Thanks for your wishes, peeps.

Hurt

I'm very dissappointed. It's as if I'm watching Joker playing her show in Batman. You deserve a Grammy nomination.

Happy Birthday Jay

Happy 23rd Birthday Jay. There's a reason for the Bro label on the cake. Pulling the candle of with your mouth and singing song isn't gay! Haha... you silly boy. Being friends for more than half of my life, doing crazy stuffs together since young, you'll always remain as one of the best. Our funny stories stacks each and every year so long that it would tear the world apart. Cheers :')

A Brilliant Conversation

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD, the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his New Christian Students to stand and...

Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent )

Professor : You can't answer, can you ? Let's start again, Young Fella. Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer)

Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?

(Student had no answer)

Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you. Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes,Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn't.

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events )

Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can go any further after that. There is no such thing as Cold. Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat. We cannot Measure Cold. Heat is Energy. Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

(There was Pin-Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )

Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light. But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, Darkness isn't. If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing. Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument was going )
Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor, Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?

(The Class was in Uproar )

Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor's Brain? (The Class broke out into Laughter )
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, touched or Smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that You have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir?

(The Room was Silent. The Professor stared at the Student, his face unfathomable)

Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir.. Exactly! The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.

That student was...


p/s: I believe you have enjoyed the Conversation and if so... You'll probably want your Friends/Colleagues to enjoy the same... won't you? Forward them to Increase their Knowledge... or FAITH.

*Simon claps*

Valentines Day

Strangely, I never see that coming as it was really out of expectation. All because of a sudden dispute that I can't never imagine happening that led into tonight. Meeting you again was great, and to able to talk you again after such a long time. Dining and sharing some of our life experiences after parting our own separate ways, how time has changed the both of us and some of the memories still lingers as though it just happened yesterday. I see some changes in you, Australia did do you good. Now you're a more mature and beautiful person in your own way, I think you'll be able to handle even greater responsibilities. People often questioned about our past the whole time and I never forget every single detail that we had. I remember how things were good and how situations turned sour. Nevertheless, I didn't regret why these pages of our diary slipped right thru our hands and changed forever. We couldn't grasp the moment and it just flew pass by after feeling the wind, you were no longer there. Moving from places to places and meeting all sorts of different people, I believe the past did us good, it was proven tonight. I kinda enjoyed tonight, thanks.

Happy Valentines Day Fel.

Smile

Looks nice

I'm not drunk :'P
Trying to be funny
Trying to be cool

Syiok sendiri

Haha, you're so blur!
Continues posing! Your blur chick!
Ok, I'll do it correctly for once. Not looking at the moon!
Still me

Still you

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Ever wonder how does it feels like to see everyone around you dies off slowly of old age while you grow younger? Ever understand how much it hurts to not be able to grow old with the your other half as you guys are drifting apart as the years passes?
~> I'm 86 years old when I was born.
~> We were both 5 when I first saw you.
~> I will never forget those blue eyes.
~> You are odd. You don't look like your age. Light this candle up, don't be a chicken.
~> You are the most beautiful woman, the most... beautiful.
~> I have to go, I'll write to you... promise.
~> I came all the way hoping I could sweep your feet of tonight, but...
~> I was cruel. I can't have you seeing me in this state. You are perfect.
~> Do you know I've been struck by lighting 7 times. Haha! :'D
~> Sleep with me? Absolutely!
~> We practically lived on a matress together for that whole period of time.
~> Will you still love me when I grow old and saggy?
~> *Rains* I think you'll leave first before me. No, I think you'll leave first before me.
~> I have your child. What are you afraid of? That she'll be like you? Then all the more I'll love her.
~> Did you count her toes? Haha!
~> She needs a real father, someone who can grow old with her.
~> He sent me postcards from everywhere around the world.
~> Why did you came back?
~> I wish I could send you to school, I wish I could teach you to play the piano, I wish I could tell you to be careful with guys, I wish I could be your father...
~> When I look into his eyes, I knew he recognised me.
“My name is Benjamin Button, and I was born under unusual circumstances.”

Fate may be fickle, but what we do with the time on earth is in our hands. I'll be waiting, all you have to do is just come. I keep waiting but you'll never come. I got tired of waiting, wondering if you're ever coming around, my faith in you is fading. I'll take you somewhere we can be alone. You'll be the princess and I'll be the prince. Don't be afraid, we will make it out of this mess. It's a love story, baby just say.... yes.
p/s: What are you thinking? I'm thinking of how things wouldn't last forever. No.... there are some things... that last forever... :')

Love Remains The Same

A thousand times I've seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me want to run till' I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear
As everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I find a place where we escape
Take you with me for the space
The city buzz sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I have to find just where you are
The faces seem to blur
They're all the same

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don't you trick me out
We shall overcome
It's all left still to play
We should've had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we're over here

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time too long defending
You and I are done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change

I, oh I, I wish this could last forever
I, oh I, As if we could last forever

Love remains the same
Love remains the same

Messy Heart

I woke up with this strange feeling. I feel so uncomfortable with the way things are right now. Unfinished revision, messy heart, heavy head, my mind's spinning with everything that revolving around me. Look at my heart... Argh.... save me.

It's been awhile since I last feel this way, a confused and unsettled heart. It beats inconsistently... a little fast, a little slow, clouded by several things at one go. Is it the coffee or is it me or the sleep or.... This is suffocating, I need some space to breathe. Hope my exams will be done soon and I can clear all these mess. Made a short prayer last nite. Sigh, back to books.

Slow Dance

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast
Time is short.

The music won't last
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask how are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short.
The music won't last

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,
'Hi' You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift...
Thrown away.

Life is not a race
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

This is a poem written by a teenager with cancer. This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital. This young girl has 6 months left to live, and as her dying wish, she wanted to send a letter telling everyone to live their life to the fullest, since she never will. She'll never make it to prom, graduate from high school, or get married and have a family of her own.

p/s: The clock will never tick backwards. Appreciate every moment & chance before you lose it, or lose someone. Live a life without regrets.