Control

I spent my morning practicing this song, Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone). Finally, about an hour or so I managed to find the right voice to suite this song. This will be the presentation song for my worship lead session on the 27th July next month. All of you are invited to come, shoutout to Justin, Lynnett, Alvin(I came aite!), Evonna, Yiran, you guys better come. For those of you never heard of this man Jesus Christ, here's your chance to see what is it like. There's nothing better than seeing it yourself, so come and see. We are not trying to brainwash anyone, in fact as a fellow Christian I dislike it when someone does it. Get yourself expose, come again if you feel something is in store for you. Add me in MSN or email me and I will reply you as soon as possible(check the right column of the blog). My church is Petaling Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia, South East Asia, Earth xD. I finished typing the Goals and Preparation for the Youth Ministry in the afternoon before heading to the mall.

Right now, I'm blogging this as I just came back from a movie with Ivan Chong in Mid Valley. We watched "Wanted" and to my surprise, God spoke to me throughout the whole movie. I watched it with an uneasy feeling because why speak to me during a movie? It has been a month since God last spoke to me so much. This movie will be my personal best action movie because it's from God's selection, the storyline is not bad as well. Perhaps your interpretation would be different from mine after watching it, but here's what God told me. You are born into this world with nothing. What you see and what you live on and what you experience has shape you to what you believe, trust and hold onto in life.

Just like the movie, this young man (James McAvoy) who is fatherless led a life that is meaningless, a 9 to 5 office job as a Accounts Manager with a "skinny" boss and lives with his girlfriend in a house near a railway track. He thought his life was pathetic and empty, until one fine day, someone came to him and said she (Fox, Angelina Jolie) knew his father. His father was murdered by a man named Cross who betrayed the organisation of professional assassins, Fraternity. After a series of action packed life threatening incident, he was told that his destiny is to replace his father to kill Cross. He asked a question that all of us had or will ask sometime in our lives, Who Am I? And he was convinced that his destiny was fated to be an assassin. He was trained well, he was taught to gain control of his life, he was taught that if he believes in himself, he could do things that normal humans can't do.

And the Lord says this to me, my Son, in life there are many things that you thought was true, there are many things that the world makes you believe in, they claimed that you can be the God of your life, you can have control and temptations of many kinds will be sent to you till you struggle so hard to resist each of it. Can you distinct my voice from the world? Can you?

They, Fraternity believed that God has sent names to them thru a machine that generate codes to be cracked into names to be assassinated (to me, the machine represents God). Based on Fraternity's history, there was once a failed assignment of killing a target whose name was generated from the machine. Weeks later the target killed a man in front of his daughter. He was convinced that the names generated must die before something evil is bound to happen. Indeed as time passes, he became a great assassin and his long awaited assignment came, to kill Cross. His determination was filled with brutality, hatred, anger and it would take nothing to stop him from hunting this down man who murdered his father. The world will make you believe in things that you thought that was so real to you, to your naked eye, psycho you slowly like taking a sips of poison everyday until one day you feel numb and think you are in control of everything. What if one day the things you've hold onto for all your life is just a lie? Will you accept it?

There was a twist in the ending of the story, the young man assassinated Cross and found out that Cross was his real father. Cross was trying to protect this young man(his son) from the organisation since birth. He wanted his son to have a chance to lead a different life from what he experienced. He wanted him to feel how is it like to find his own family and be away from tasting blood, a different destiny. And it was revealed to this young man that Fraternity's head, Sloan's name was actually generated from the machine which meant, he was suppose to die some time ago. Sloan actually manipulated the whole organisation and generated the names from the machine by himself to control the fate of mankind. Sloan chose to be God himself. In the end, the young man assassinated every one in Fraternity and lived on.

If you do not know Me, you are a like lost sheep being directed by the wolfs. You will be deceived by the ways of man and lose everything just like how this young assassin gave his life for the temporary "faith" on earth. A questioned hit me, if God chose you to die today? What will your answer be? Will you be like Abraham or will you runaway like Jonah? Will you try to take over God like Sloan? He gave me this word to include in my testimony this coming 13th July, "Control".

Who is in... CONTROL?

We'll Make It Happen

This morning I woke and played basketball for an hour or two after a short jog. At 10am I head to the stalls near the factories for breakfast with Joshua, my church pastor that is. After that we head back to the church for further discussions. I told Joshua about my thoughts and plans for the youths in future. It's really amazing after hearing back from him. He shared to me something about the church(cannot reveal here, sorry) and he said I came at the right time. He just started training a few mentors. It's time to make a move and I was the missing link for the youths. I was pretty surprise at first after hearing his thoughts and indeed this is the perfect time to prepare and plan for the church.

Our church is undergoing a Revival and the people has started moving again. The conflicts were pretty much a smaller problem now and for the youth ministry I'm gonna to work for, we're targetting to get all the preparation done hopefully by the end of this year so we can start a new worship service, thats is for the youths! It's really awesome, today we've started a rough idea for the youth service, which includes Worship, Bible Study, Evangelism(reaching out to others), Fellowship and other activities. We're gonna go more in depth the next meeting after I finished my first task. If everything goes into plan and with God's grace, we'll be able to start in the beginning of next year or on the first quarter of 2009. Right now I'm going through the goals of the youth ministry and will be visiting more churches to come up with an attendees profile of youth churches, youth services randomly.

I'm so so so excited, with the upcoming 90 children from Boys Brigade(a program for the young ones in our church) that is soon to be in the youth group, we're gonna bridge them into our church and grow in faith and hopefully in numbers as well. Fantastic! And with the current youths we have, it's gonna be amazing. Will be calling up a lot of people from now on to come back and the existing youths to commit and have fun together building the youth ministry around this time. Will let as many people know when we are ready to launch this moment of history in church!

Thank you for the people who has prayed for Emmanuel Baptist Chruch and for me as well. God hears you loud and clear. Continue to pray and He will continue to do great great works in our lifes. Joshua and me could see now how God can really put things together like a rotten tofu being glued back together as a perfect piece xD. There's many things that we won't know how to acheive, however put all your trust and have faith in Him. In God's dictionary, there's no impossibilities. We will make it happen together!

I Will Remember You

Eight years later
Time goes by fast
Got my memories
And they will last
I try to keep it simple 'cuz I hate goodbyes
I try to keep it simple by telling myself that

I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you
I will remember you

We're a picture in my mind
And when I wanna find you
I just close my eyes
You'll never be that far from me
So don't say goodbye 'cuz
You'll never be that far from me
I'm telling myself that

I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you

You were there when I needed love and
Thank you, thank you
I never told you how much that meant
God thank you, thank you
I will remember you

Blinded

Each new day without failing the sun will rise and shine,
It's only if we see it or we're blinded by the storms,
Don't hide from heaven, don't stay in darkness,
Loneliness fills the emptiness inside if you choose to turn away,

Even when it rains, I assure you the light is still there,
We don't need to always see things with our naked eye,
Things beyond the human minds comes with great faith,
The very first man who flew had his own dreams,
Hope less for fire to burn from a lighting bolt,

Destiny has chosen you here today, right here, right now,
Wake up from your deep slumber sweet dreams,
Love awaits on the other side, away from countless sin and mortality,
It's time to make a move, fall back in sight of glory.

God's Love

*Meowww* It's been almost 3 months now. One night a cat came to me in the kitchen and started calling me. She's pregnant, I sense she must be pretty hungry and unable to find food with her current condition. Therefore I fed her with white bread and she quickly finished it up without hesitation. On the third night, when I brought her bread again, she didn't even bother to touch it. I was thinking hrm..... this cat is getting free food but wanna 'jual mahal' with me huh! Nevermind, went back the cupboard, took the biscuit box out and I gave her some Jacobs Cream Crackers dip in water. She ate it! Awesome, cats nowadays eats bread, eats biscuits etc. Sometimes I would save some fish for her. Soon it became a habit and a task for me to attend to her every night for dinner/supper. During the days where I'm not at home or teraccidentally forget or busy, sorry la cat, you're not my girlfriend or wive or God, you should know by now why I've never keep a pet by myself (they'll die sooner or later when I teraccidentally forget bout them).

About a month plus later, she gave birth to one or two kittens. She's orange and her babies are greyish/black. I was wondering where is their useless father who made her pregnant. The father, greyish/black would come with her sometimes to get food from me. There's a few times where she went into my house, into my bed room! I chased her out of the house, apa ni, that's trespassing! I'll hang a "Trespassers without permission with be shot without question" signboard soon! To my surprise, one night she brought in a baby kitten into my study room thru my bed room and hid there. Looks like it's all planned out already. As smart as the cat can be, she doesn't know about Queen of my house yet, Your Royal, Powerful & Naggy Highness, Queen Grande Mama. Talking speed = 100 hertz/s. My grandma got mad over this and took a big metal scissors, clipped the kitten's neck, nagging with passion, threw it to the fields. The kitten kept screaming in pain. Youch! I was withnessing it uncomfortably and continue using my computer.

Later the night the mother cat came to the window and kept meowwing me. She wants to get into my house thinking her baby was still in my study room. I was quite disturbed by it for an hour. Later I snuck out of the house to the fields and brought the baby kitten back to the mother. As soon as the baby kitten was back to the mother, what I was about to see really touches my heart. She was hugging the baby kitten closely to herself, kissing and caressing the baby kitten over and over again. It's amazing, the love she had for her young ones. I just stood there and was very please to see them together, the cat meowwwed while looking at me (it was thank you I suppose).

Now looking back into that night, it hits me back to my faith. If the mother cat can love her baby kitten so much, what is our Abba Father's love for us? Our Creator? Isn't God's love is the one who trully surpasses all and every earthly things? Isn't it amazing? And I really felt thankful for everything that has happened. Someone you can hold on to no matter what happens, someone who will be there for you all the time, someone who gives you your identity and guide you till the very end. You can never go wrong with Him.

During my sleep lately, sometimes I heard cats meowwing with excitment. Oh no!!! Are they planning to make more babies?!!! *Faints*

Guardian Angel

My handphone mirror cracked. I sat on the phone during camp and the strap was on top of it. First time using one. I thought rather than looking and keeping a nice metal strap in my drawer for months.... I guess it's not such a good idea for someone like me to use a strap after all, my phone!!! Unlengchified!!! By the way girls out there, guys don't use handphone straps! So if they like it or use it, it must be for someone. I had my Finance Corporate paper today. As usual, that slight twist in the questions makes me go cuckoo in the hall thinking whats the trick to it. *Prays* Pass me! Pass me! Two more to go! Something just hit me this afternoon, I wonder whats was on your mind after these months....

Like an angel from above,
I'm always watching you from afar,
Even if it's time and distance,
Near to my heart you'll be,

During the rainy days,
I pray God sends you an umbrella,
On your darkest days,
I wish the candle lights up for you,

When you are numb,
May soft touches make you feel,
And when you're tired and lonely,
I hope you'll be showered with blessings of love,

Even if it takes more patience,
Even sometimes it makes me breakdown,
Even when they thought I'm insane,
I will find my way to you, somehow,

Each and every nite I pray,
Peace will be upon you,
I'm always watching you from afar,
Like an angel from above.

God's Calling

I'm officially broke. Due to Ivan's party plans these 2 weeks. Well, he's back from the states after a few years so have to hang out. Spent some cash on a gift and paid for Rock camp fees, leaving a 10 dollar note resting in my skinny wallet. Overall, the camp was alright, Talent Time was fun. However, something special happened in the camp. God spoke to me, His calling was clear and loud, I felt it thru out the whole time in Golden Sands, the bits and pieces of the puzzle after this 2 months began to make sense. I've decided to respond to Him. Amen?

Departing from the Sands,
Carrying His command with me,
I walked again into the city,
Into a world of lost souls,

I heard the prayer,
A man of great strength I'll be,
Fear not of the coming days,
My son, you are under my wings,

I'll march on forward,
Opening my eyes with courage,
Leading the people into the light,
Lets all fly high for God!