Bush's New Conference Security System

There was this man who threw a shoe to President George Bush in a conference. He missed it, and threw his other shoe as well. Haha... and now....

Christmas Love

It begins on a bright summer day,
There's this green pasture,
At the end of it is a salt lake,
I always wanted to be in the picture,

Two shadows beside the windmill,
Being close, being near,
Till the place is wrapped in snow,
Cuddling you in the cold,

It was a long journey to find you,
Rough rides with an unsettled heart,
Time flew with a prayer whispered,
Much to say, this unspoken words,

Even with pain, even with tears,
Even with countless lonely nights,
Love, why is it always clearer looking back?
The remains of a lost story

Perhaps such was love,
Because such is love,
I will wait for your return,
On another Christmas day.

Appreciation

You've gotta be extra careful
With the things nearest to you
You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it

Explain to me this happiness
That you just got to experience
Or maybe that you're so blessed
That you can't even remember

That you stand here now
That you live and breathe
They're all little miracles
Just by themselves

I'll never forsake you
And I'll never take it for granted
It's fine to say "Never give up"
And "Keep chasing your dreams"

The more you spend your time talking big
The less you get done
I'll press that handful of courage against my heart
And with its help, survive another day

I'll never take it for granted

Quarantine

I watched Quarantine this evening. It was Celine's suggestion to watch it, the title gave me an impression of "cleaning" or "eliminating" something and turned out to be a little unpredictable(maybe cause I never even look at the poster). It was pretty creative, strong horror vibe and a little unpleasant to watch, everyone was dead in the end. I got my left leg up while watching it, so...... pretty scary haha... compared to those Korean or Thai horror movies which uses sound effects and disgusting figures (most of them tells about evil spirits not resting in peace seeking for vengeance, predictable?). Imagine having your brother or sister turning pale, going berserk biting you, dang.... then you gotta knock them down with a hammer. I was in silence when they play the credits.

Close To You

I wanna be everythin your man's not
And I'm gonna give you everytime little thing I got
Cause you are more than a man needs
That's why I say you're truly my destiny
I'm gonna get cha
If it takes until forever
No you don't feel me if forever turns into never
I'll let you know my love is just as strong
And for you never just ain't that long

I wanna be the smile you put on your face
I wanna be your hands when you say your grace
I wanna be whatever is your favorite place, oh
I just wanna be close
I wanna be the hat you put on your head
I wanna be the sheets you put on your bed
I wanna be the skirt wrapped around your legs
Oh, I just wanna be close

And even if the day turns into night
I will love you by candlelight
And even if he water starts to run over
I'll be there to put you on my shoulder
And if it's hard for you to get to sleep
I will sing you a melody,
I wanna feel this way
Till the end of time, cause I pray one day
That you will be mine

See my life's filled with up and downs
I'm ok when you're around
And when I'm in a storm and my nights are cold
Reach out your hands for me to hold
See you're my queen on a throne and you're the reason
For a song and I can't wait to fill you up with love
Fill you with love


I wanna be the sun, your stars, your moon
I wanna be a hot summer day in June
I wanna be the smell of your sweet perfume
I just wanna be close
I wanna be the seed
That bare your life brand new
I wanna be the one that's so faithful and true
I wanna be the man down that aisle in that suït, yes
I just wanna be close

Ice Cream

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I dont wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where i know i won't forget

And now, who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice cream
I don't want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

Unfinished Story

Will you write for me the ending?
Do I have to find another author,
When you flip thru the pages,
Do you see our future?

Troubles conquered our space,
In a second the pen was dropped,
Leaving the story incomplete,
The absence of you kills me quietly,

Don't give up when the ink runs dry,
A little faith changes everything,
Step up to what we believe in,
There's time for the unwritten pieces,

Remembering the days together,
Under the trees we sat,
Sharing a moment of you & I,
Now I'm left swinging alone.

Distance

No it doesn't seem too far,
It's a song we both know,
When I wanna find you,
I just close my eyes...

Hostage Heart

Do you miss me like I miss you?
Take up the map of the tressure chest,
There's a compas find a way,
It will lead you to my eyes,

If you look above the trees,
The planes will fly to the north,
Leave behind those shadows binding,
Get nearer to what fills you,

You shot me with an arrow yesterday,
Now my heart is a hostage,
It bleeded full with love,
Like a patient who found his cure,

You cheated me with words today,
Now my heart is in misery,
It bleeded filled with pain,
Like a patient without a doctor,

How could fishes swim without water?

It can't hide it's struggling,
Becoming your hostage ain't easy,
No keys to escape this love,

Your lies pokes thru my veins,
It drips till it's numb,
But you held my heart on hostage,
I couldn't runaway from this cage,
Chained by empty promises,

You held my heart on hostage,
On hostage,
On hostage,
Oh no,

Now there's a hole in my heart,
I'm losing control of myself,
Hostaged heart couldn't be freed,
I will be the death of love.

Say

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Better than you had it

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it

Haunted Mansion

Life is full of black mysteries,
Dusty wind protecting our lies,
Hatred fogged by sandstorms,
Ugly faces divided to two,

Walk back on that wooden bridge,
Quickly run as the planks collapse,
Flee and hide to flithy wasteland,
Entering into the devil's lair,

Evil smiles when the dark return,
Tormented souls cry out loud,
Screams heard before the night reborn,
Death is floating in the mind,

The gates break loose spirits crawling,
Mirrors breaking in burning flare,
Auras pushing and pulling you,
Sliding another step closer to hell,

None knew their wicked plans,
Blood fills the empty glasses,
Devils brainwash, sinister laughter,
No escape for your trembling shiver,

Bodies torn apart souls eaten up,
Replenishing the sins of the world,
Bid your last farewell to mother earth,
Your worst nightmare is here tonight.

Move On

It's so very easy for youth to forgive everything
I called in the rescue squad
So just kiss me all night

Is it a fallen angel's magic, or a mischievous monster's prank?
Before we all get bored
Let's let go of that bowling ball
We led such strange lives
You gotta understand we're gonna smash it

Cut through the inner turmoil
Are we are gonna end?
I can't break it... our victory.

Blue Sea

Every night I run the mile,
I travel on the rainy track,
The evening shines with a smile,
It's burning deep within me,

I stopped, I paused for a second,
The moon gazing at the fields,
It's when beauty meets nature,
Glowing green under the lamp lights,

I hear you from distance apart,
Take me deeper into you,
Break the walls of this shell,
Find me with your solemn voice,

I'll take the hardest path to seek love,
The ending forever before me,
Two steps further a year older,
Stronger faith flew me higher,

I found, the sand of a no man's land,
The glimmering crystal clear sea,
I saw, a virgin of no one's touch,
It's you, I've been waiting for.

Guitarist

Time flies, this Sunday I'll be worship leading again. Thinking about introducing From The Inside Out song to the church congregation. I'm excited about it again, I heard from Lilian who's in Dubai now. She's getting married soon, really cool after what she has been thru these few years. I celebrated Merdeka in restaurant overseas with a few chuches as it was aniversary dinner for our church, Emmanuel Baptist Church 50th aniversary. Recently, been busy with work, hang out, discussions, assignments, fellowships, classes, church activities (we had a blast playing water balloons last month!) and today I was practicing this song, Stop & Stare. I've decided to participate in my college's Talent Quest and I might put up an extra surprise if "someone" is coming to support me. Therefore, I need a guitarist to play for me on that day as I wanna go unplugged for that song and maybe another one too.

Mercy

Angel of mercy
How did you find me?
Where did you read my story?
Pulled from the papers
Desperate and hardened
Seeking a momentary fix

All I wanted to say
All I wanted to do
Is fall apart now
All I wanted to feel
I wanted to love
Its all my fault now
A tragedy I fear

Angel of mercy
How did you find me?
How did you pick me up again?
Angel of mercy
How did you move me?
Why am I on my feet again?
And I see you
Whoa Whoa Whoa
I feel you
Whoa Whoa Whoa

'fore just the daylight
Come and I stand by
Waiting to catch the quickest plane
Fly me to nowhere
Is better than somewhere
That's where I've been and nothings changed

All I wanted to say
All I wanted to do
Is fall apart now
All I wanted to feel
I wanted to love
Its all my fault now
A tragedy for sure

I'm so lost in you
A tragedy seemed to be over now, oh now
A tragedy it seemed to be over now

Up & Downs

That night was the very first time in my life witnessing my father in tears. He has his soft side too.

Never blame a day in your life,
Good days give you happiness,
Bad days give you experience,
Both are essential in life,
All are Gods blessings.

p/s: I enjoyed last nite Yenny :) Xie xie lao shi..

Eternal Sleep

I'm hanging on heaven's door,
Tonight the tears can't stop,
Please don't leave me alone,
I'll do anything you ever want,

We had our share of fun,
As little we were in the playgrounds,
Taking our time as it never ends,
Our hands unite making this covenant,

You promised me that day,
Under the endless blue skies,
The clouds hearing us out,
Do you still remember?

These four letters spelled,
Don't ever leave before me,
Even if you don't wanna speak,
It's alright, alright with me,

I'm sitting outside the door,
To listen to you breathing,
This invisible wall is parting us,
Tonight the tears can't stop.

He's Gone

Just came back home from work. Just knew that my uncle has passed away. I remembered the times when he just got his pay every month and gave me a small cut out of it.... the times me and Wayne play pranks on him and run all over the house... 21 years of memories....

Finding Our Way

You're kinda lost for awhile,
Looking at the crossroad of failures,
Think about all the beautiful things,
Draw the sun as our heart winks,

So you run and you hide,
Then you walk it all alone,
So you been trying to find a smile,
Then look behind you'll find me,

No one's looking at the two of us,
Laughing while the angel sings,
Just give me all your fears,
And I will throw it all away,

You found love but it ran away,
On a road with no lamplights,
Forget about the previous movie,
Lets hold tomorrow in our hands,

You just stare into space hey,
We're on the race to the starlights,
Strave yourself from everything else,
Lets scream with joy for tonight.

Tagged By Alesa

Six Things I'm Passionate About:
~>God, always and forever.
~>Girls, haha I'm sure you guys are passionate for the opposite sex too ;)
~>The band, still waiting to jam.
~>Youths, Passion Conference was pretty good, Ivan is gonna make a video about it.
~>College subjects.
~>TVB Drama - Moonlight Resonance. English Series - Entourage. Awesome!
Six Things I Say Too Often:
~>How are you?
~>Sandwich. Currently I'm living on sandwich for my diet, made a few for my friends, Jen Zi: You can open a stall already. Cool!
~>Singing, jum karaoke.
~>Jum movie, I need a company.
~>Mama, are you still watching the television? (I'll dedicate 1 blog entry for my grandma soon)
~>Breakfast ready. I'm making breakfast everyday this week for family.

Six Books I Read (Recently):
~>Auditing texbook.
~>Organisation Law textbook.
~>Business Capstone student guide.
~>Decision Analysis textbook.
~>Bible
~>Dictionary haha... all these books requires a dictionary to understand you know.

Six Songs I Can Listen to Again and Again:
~>Audioslave - Be Yourself
~>Foo Fighters - Everlong
~>Smashing Pumpkins - 1979
~>Radiohead - Creep
~>Lifehouse - First Time
~>The Calling - Wherever You Will Go
~>Nirvana - Lithium
~>Boys Like Girls - Great Escape
~>The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Guardian Angel
~>The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - False Pretense
I have no choice. These are the song list for the coming jamming session xD

Six Things I Learnt In The Past Year:
~>Trust in God and He will do His best for you.
~>Failing isn't a fullstop in life. You can form a new sentence after that.
~>Improve yourself while waiting for the right person.
~>You can choose to see things as a blessing or burden. If you choose to always look things as burden, you're one major sad case.
~>You gotta believe in what you're doing, don't let people influence you easily.
~>Life's too short to think of the sad stuffs too often, be happy and move forward.

From The Inside Out

I'm touched each and every time I watch this video. Tears just flows somehow, beautiful song.

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord, let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord, let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord my soul cries out

A New Sound In Town

Finally, after probably 2 years bumming around, I've managed to assemble a band with people of the same taste of music. Awesome, can't wait for our very first practice... Introducing...
Kei Loke. How old? Ask him yourself xD. A great chef in the making, yeah he's a chef and he's my drummer now. Faster get yourself back from holidays and we can start rolling dude.

Ethan Lim. 22 years old. He's working in an advertising company. His job? Well, almost everything that range from accounting to marketing to advertising. Damn, evil boss and this bro here is my guitarist.

Simon Ng. 22 years old. Yeah, that's me you're looking at. Pursuing my Bachelor of Commerce degree in Accounting & Finance in Metropolitan College, Subang Jaya. I am the voice of the band, so get off the mic.

Wei Leng. 22 years old. A good buddy mine, graduated from Metropolitan College in Economic & Finance, currently looking for a boss before proceeding to a Masters in Finance. As they say, it's always sweet to have a rose among the guys. We're not thorns, who came up with that stupid phrase? Lovely lady here's our keyboardist.

What?! No, this isn't Chinese New Year yet. No ang paus, nothing. xxxxx xxx. xx years old. He's our bassist, the last piece in the band. Mysterious huh? I'll reveal to you who's the man behind this after our first session kicks off. I've got a good feeling bout this.

Wounded Past

Much sadness, such tragedies,
A part of them die silently,
What is worst than an empty soul?
A wounded heart waiting to heal,

"Why so serious?", he asked,
A mask covers his timid self,
Lets put a smile on that face,
Tonight you no longer see your shadow,

They told me their stories,
I cried with them, their misery,
Time will restore oh broken one,
For He knows whos in need,

Play the drums, get on the strings,
Melodies of the bass beating,
Light up some heart felt music,
Lets put on a show for our audience.

Testimony

Church was amazing yesterday. I led worship, with Kennard on the drums. Kennard is a good friend who left for studies in UK a couple of years ago. It's great to have him back with us now and the coming weeks. I gave a testimony, a song presentation and a video presentation. I was glad that quite a few came to me after that with really encouraging words, support and some volunteered to fight alongside with us! This was the sharing on Sunday....

I grew up in a church. When I was 5 or 6, towards the end of my kindergarden life, my beloved and now belated teacher, Miss Foo asked my mum what I’ll be doing on every Sunday morning. My mom told me that I’m free and usually I’ll be sleeping most of the time on that day. That’s how I actually got invited and start attending church in First Baptist. When I was in church, I often hear God’s word, be it from the Youth Pastor or the Sunday School teachers or my fellow Christian friends. But still I don’t really know who God truly is. All I knew was He was the creator of all things and we must submit to Him for He is our master. So to be in church on a Sunday was more like a routine rather than coming because of passion for God. And I grew up well in these years, blessed with such a loving and caring mom.

When I was 12, First Baptist had a renovation and has shifted to Subang for about 2 years. At that time, I didn’t want to go to Subang and I was churchless for about a year plus. During this period, my grand aunty has brought my grandma and mom to Emmanuel Baptist and later on extended the invite to me and my brothers. I didn’t like being here initially. It was rather boring to listen to the long winded sermons, strangers everywhere, and all my friends that I used to mix were no longer around. Almost everytime when I make my visits to EBC, there will be this young man coming to me, putting his hands on my shoulders like I’m his best friend, telling me, hey what you do on Sundays mostly? Very free right? COME TO EMMANUEL BAPTIST. And each time I see him, I’ll try to move further because he will tell me the same thing and it scares me away because I don’t really know him and it sounds like some church advertising or sales approach to me, like trying to sell your church with a more aggressive manner. And that man is Pastor Joshua Tan. He was just an ordinary church member or probably an intern in church during that time. This is how my journey in Emmanuel Baptist Church actually started.

Strangely I never see Joshua anymore for a long period of time when I was in church. He was just missing in action and I only realized it months later because… no one actually came to me to ask me every week without failure to COME TO EMMANUEL BAPTIST. Few years later, one Sunday I saw Joshua attending church, dressed with a nice suit, tie walking to the parsonage and I went to him “Hi Joshua”. He replied me, “Hi, I’m gonna be your pastor”. *My heart stops beating* I was shocked and couldn’t believe it because almost all the Pastors I’ve seen were at least 40 years old or older. Many things happened in that few years till today. I didn’t quite put all my trust in Him. I hold on to every other thing besides God. I tried to find my purpose of life thru studies. However it only satisfies me for a moment, when I get good results and everyone would praise me, after that I don’t feel anything great. I tried to find my purpose of life thru friends. However it doesn’t make me happy all the time no matter how great or close the friends are to me. Even close or best friends will argue, mistreat you or betray your trust. I tried to find my purpose of life thru love. Yeah, at that age love was just finding a girl and go on dates and live happily ever after. And I have failed in 3 relationships miserably. I tried to find my purpose in life thru every other way besides God. And I failed miserably. I wanted control in my life. I wanted to be the God of my own life.

Jesus has unconsciously shaped me and changed me thru out the years slowly. I was put as a backup into a worship team, later on I’m here today, serving the Lord as a worship leader and I had many experience with God. In this recent camp that I went to, God actually revealed to me that the youths in our church are lost. The numbers in our church are decreasing and many leaders had left. Who is there to actually guide the youths? Who is there to grow and take care of the youths? Who is actually there to teach and empower the youths? It kept me thinking and even right now, look at our attendance today, where are all the youths we used to have in church? That truly upsets me and I went to Pastor Joshua, I think God wants our church to have our Youth Service.

One Sunday, Joshua shared to us that if the adults and members of this church, fail to successfully pass the baton to the youths someday to lead the church, there will be no tomorrow for Emmanuel Baptist Church, there will be no tomorrow. I personally couldn’t agree more on that because people have to grow old one day, they have to die and meet God one day, and who will actually take over their role and place in the church? It’s the future adults in church, the young people, the youths. It’s okay if we start small, but I hope and I pray that all the youths and members of this church will give us full support and come back to God if you have strayed away from Him and help the church to grow. Right now we are still in the planning phase and I’m constantly praying that the members of the church will be blessed by God and the youths to come back and serve and have a great time in this church. We need a lot of young people to actually come before God and give their best for God. If everything goes according to plan, perhaps we can successfully start the Youth Service next year, and of course we are not disconnecting the youths to the Main Service. We want to reach out to the young people with a different approach and connect to them. We want to train future leaders or the church, we want to teach them how to honour God, how to love your parents, to excel academically and in their spiritual walk, we want to have a community where the young people can turn to during their trouble times, we want them to not forget about God during their high and low times in their life. No matter how successful you are in the future, you will be lost and empty without God. I would like to ask all of us here today to keep in Youths of this church in your daily prayers and end this sharing session with a song, Amazing Grace(My Chains Are Gone) and later with a video presentation of the camp I recently attended. Thank you.

p/s: There a lot of other names I would like to mention, like Lilian Ang, Wendy, Chee Seng, Sally and others but I wasn't give sufficient as it was a normal worship session. And..... Congrats Debbie! She is the runners up for ASQ 2008. You made us really proud.

This is Debbie, me and Wei Leng. I still remember this is our very first meeting that sparkled a friendship couple of years ago. We looked so INNOCENT! xD

Chances

There are countless chances in life, and there are also possibilities we might miss them all. However sometimes, not everything has second chances, especially in this cruel reality. They don't come by everyday and when you miss the flight, you'll be left behind. There won't be any second flights for you. If that's the only opportunity in life, be quick, firm, determined and pray. The Lion King who fails to bring back food for its herd of lives, is risking the whole Kingdom to perish. Seize the only chance, or just die like the foolish & unworthy.

Tagged By Yeen Hoong

h1. At what age do you wish to marry?
~>I once begged my mum to teach me bake cookies for a girl. She said, NO, all your relationships are unsucessful, teach you is like wasting my effort and time. I replied, but mom, I'm still young and I have time to choose the best wife if it doesn't work out. I'm 22 and it would take at least about 4 to 8 more years for me to get married. So what you think? ;)

Mum: Okay, I'll teach you how to bake cookies in 4.5 years time.
Me: *Cha Dou*

Anyway, she taught me at last and I baked London Chocolate Almond Cookies!

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
~>America, Australia, Japan etc. I want a world tour ticket haha.

3. If you could have one word that'll describe your mood right now, what would it be?
~>Sleepy, I just rise from my dreams.

4. How long can a true friendship last?
~>Forever. I grew up with a bunch of friends since Primary One. Some even from kindergarden before we went to the same Primary school. I'm proud to say, you guys are my bestesrestest buddies.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
~>Become a singer/rockstar/running a business (ain't giving the details!).

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
~>Yup, but I might need to live inside the cave in some forest thats rich with natural source of food, dress like Tarzan and use the rocks as pillow.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
~>My faith.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
~>Put in CIMB bank, into a fund that provides fairly well returns until I graduate I'll plan again.

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
~>Loves calling me kor kor, aite thats not a good point. Christian, soft hearted and polite.

10. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
~>I've answered this before. Aite here goes round 2. She must be loud like thunder, sakai like Ivy, click better than Click 5, active like monkey, flexible like rubberband, rational like psychics, creative like rainbows, happy like hyena on estacy pills, talkative like tv, sweet like sugar and preferbably Christian, well mannered, strives to improve, understanding.

11. If you could rewind time would you?
~>Is it like... this movie.... The Click?!

12. What's your ambition?
~>I'll either start off as an auditor or work in a finance firm, get my professional certificade, maybe a master later on and see where God takes me from here. The best is yet to come.

13. Are you emotional?
~>Yes, if someone who meant a lot to me hurts me. *Sniffs* Tissue plwease.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
~>God, family & friends, other half, health to fullfill my dreams.

15. If you could undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be?
~>Learn singing as soon as I can speak.

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
~>Naiveness. I still have some of them in me despite the fact that I try my best not to be cheated when I place my trust on people.

17. What music have you been listening to recently?
~>Rock, Duets, Asian Idol 2007, Astro Talent Quest 2008(Go Debbie! I'll support you in the finals this Saturday, my treat for makan aite? I'm not good in doing banner xD).



This is Debbie Lim/林淑晶!! representating ASQ2008 for Billionstar PK round in Taiwan.

Those interested to come with me for Astro Talent Quest 2008 finals can get tickets from me. Saturday, Stadium Merdeka, 7.45pm. I still have a bunch of tickets! Come support Debbie!

18. What is the one thing you cannot do but you wish you could?
~>It's not I can't but I don't have it yet, lots of cash, like 10 trucks full, there's a lot I want to accomplish with it.

19. What will you do if your life left 3 more days?
~>Jalan-jalan cari makan, write some poems, give everyone I love a bear hug, wish them goodbye and sleep in my wifes embrace. Hey future wifey, you cannot die before I do, aite?!

20. Should we lie or confess in love?
~>Confess, no mater how slim the chances are, whether she's Miss Africa or millions of guys lining up for her till it reaches Sabah, I still give it a shot!

Homesick

Keep digging, dig.... and dig,
Not even a drip of water,
Shades from the hidden dungeon,
Give me, my path to freedom,

A stroke drawn with my blood,
I count the days to release,
Marking the escape of the sun,
Darkness blinds my sight again,

Secret plans kept like a silent mice,
A two side coin bet on this hole,
Not knowing where it leads the soul,
Give me, my path to salvation,

One day I'll break this chains,
These bars won't hold me back,
The gods tried to rob my faith,
Unworthy compared to my Master,

I rejoice, even when I bleed all over,
The path to a brighter tomorrow,
I vow to fly like Him someday,
Keep digging, and seek the route,

Free me from this murderous sin,
For they did not bow in awe,
When I'm set alive to see the sunlight,
I'll never miss you ever, Homesick.

Whatever It Takes

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

Tagged By Asmice

Tag! Tag! Lets spread the virus

7 facts about me:-
~>Loves singing, everybody knows that.
~>Romantic, I think? according to some reliable sources lol.
~>Loves God, you bet.
~>Infinite hobbies, tell me about it.
~>Lame, with countless exciting jokes that ends up in silence.
~>Creative, loves "eye talking", filled with crazy ideas.
~>Darnnn naughty & playful if you know me well.

7 things that scare me:-
~>Crazy dawgs... after being chased by a 4 legged brownish nutcase.
~>Guys grabbing mens' butt? Man, I'll kill that dude... REALLY!
~>My pastor having period.
~>My brothers having period, too?
~>Girls joining the period session, three?
~>Being alone watching a horror movie in the cinema, that's scary crap you know.
~>Being robbed, it's alright if the robber wants to rob my cash plus my cards or the wallet if he's make good use out of it, but don't hold a knife and tell me "I'm stabbing you before I ciao". Man, I'll kill that dude..... TOO!


7 songs playing in my mind:-
~>Chris Tomlin - Amazing Grace(My Chains Are Gone)
~>Dr Bombay - Rice & Curry

Hurry hurry hurry, buy my rice and curry,
Buy my rice and curry, so hurry hurry hurry,
Buy 1 for 2, special price for you,
Oh wey oh, curry nam nam curry curry curry nam nam!

~>Alex Band - Tonight
~>Lifehouse - Whatever It Takes
~>Crazy Frog - I Like To Move It

All girls all over the world,
Original Mad Stuntman pon ya case man!
I love how all girls a move them body,
And when ya move ya body, and move it,
Nice and sweet and sexy, alright!

I like to move it, move it
I like to move it, move it
I like to move it, move it
Ya like to MOVE IT!

~>Jonas Brothers - When You Look Me In The Eyes
~>Rick Mugrage - Blue Skies

7 valuable things in my life:
~>God
~>Family, although I pretend to be ignorant.
~>Friends, I've been praying for you guys.
~>Love ones, maybe like future pets, future girlfriend, wife and stuff.
~>My assets, not those assets aite haha, stuffs like handphones, cars and comp, it burns cash when it has problems.
~>Career, its a must, I'm a guy.
~>The voice inside me.

7 'first times' in my life:-
~>Calling an indian lady while I sleeping on her shoulder and she pushes my head away like 5 times, "Mummy, don't lah!". I woke up, look at her..... *shocked* Where's my mum?!
~>Got the tip of my middle finger crushed.
~>Singing a love song specifically to a girl in public.
~>Period life, lol.... literally perioding during my entire years in senior high.
~>Got my left cheek pinched my a stanger girl out of a sudden during LEO I.U. Nite.
~>Buttocks expose half on stage with 600 audience laughing. A girl came to me, "Oooo... nice butt". Shitt!!!!
~>Waking up and thinking it was dawn, packing up all my schooling stuffs and asking mom to fetch me to school, until I saw a large crowd playing football in the "morning" at the fields, it was EVENING, 6pm.

7 words/things I always say/use:-
~>Heys, Heya, Hi, Hello, Yo.
~>Mama, what you cooking tonight? (in the morning)
~>I wanna use (thats a standard msg to my bros when I wanna use comp).
~>Good morning, good night God.
~>My fan, Malaysia gets really hot at times.
~>Jom movie! What movie? Anything lah.
~>Jom bball! Don't Care. Coming now.

Friends that I wanna tag
~>All the readers, You're tagged! really, if you have time, tell me I'll read it.

The Heart

Dwelling in the glory of riches and fame,
Faster than any bullets could fly,
A man may live like a King of a nation,
But his heart... does not tell lies,

Like a hungry wolf craving blood,
Days of stravation brings insanity,
Bread tasted like the source of life,
Is it possible revive a dead?

Our days in this place are numbered,
Tressures shared forever remains,
In my head I know our truth,
These heartbeats, wasn't a coincidence,

Feelings can be a dangerous weapon,
Blinding one's mind to rationality,
Robbing one's rights to the truth,
What else can we hold on to?

Everynite I put myself to bed,
A dream that I'll never be awake,
Those sweet days in black and white,
Sugar was never the same again,

I'll sing for you under the little stars,
If eternity requires it shall be,
For you I'd die a thousand times,
Just to turn your face back once more,

You left that day without my prayers,
Don't forget, the memories we had,
I love you once, you're second to none,
For I know my heart... does not tell lies.

Promise

Push me till the very edge of the earth, drown me through the seven seas, burn me with snow or freeze me with fire, down to the depths of hell, passing each bizzare and storms, to every corner of the walls, I'd still stand strong. This is my promise to You, till my very last breath.

Music In My Life

As far as my memory reminds me, I grew up in an era where Michael Jackson gains his recognition as the King of Pop, boybands was once on top of the world, risen stars like Britney Spears, Jennifer Lopez and Christina Aguilera had dominated the pop chart. The whole world was into pop that time. When I was younger, put aside Christian music and kids song, the very first music I listened to is The Backsteetboys, one of the most influencial American pop group in the 90's. It was my favorite then, still the favorite boyband up till today. After their first and second album Backstreet Boys and Backstreet's Back, with hits like Everybody, Quit Playing Games, As Long As You Love Me, their popularity increased tremendously and constantly being the limelight of the media. Several boybands rise up rapidly as well around that time, N'Sync, 98 Degrees, A1 and what not, sure you heard of them. That was music to me during primary and junior high schooling.

During my 2nd grade in high school, I was introduced to rock music by school mates. There was a twist in the music industry where boybands are refered to as "gay" and they only do "lovey dovey" music in a group of 4 or 5 people. Thus, rock music began to gain favor of the younger generation. I still remember it was then bands like 3 Doors Down, Paparoach, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Vertical Horizon, Michael Learns To Rock, Limp Bizkit and many others music career shot up sky high with the amazingly large fan base of rock music lovers. However, I didn't enjoy listening to it even abit, to me it was all noise with all the drums, guitars (some of the guitarist even wank it), vocalist screaming, "Where were those time where music is suppose to grant peace and harmonize with my soul?", I asked.

Ryan Cabrera

One fine morning when I traveled to school, my friends were telling me in class "Shut up when I'm talking to you, shut up". I smiled? not knowing what was going on till..... someone told me it was a part of the lyrics of One Step Closer song. Soon it became the music industry's attention, the birth of Linkin Park, one of the most appealing 6 piece rock band in the world with a DJ in it. Remember the hype? I was carried away by their music as well, be it peer pressure or friends influence, that was how I start listening to rock music. And little did I know that a lots of rockstars in the west actually got into drugs, drinking, sex, causing a lot of troubles to the authorities. Well not all of them, with some even from broken families, foster parents, drop outs, orphans, to some extend once a "rubbish" to the society with the life they led. It was the starting point for me to begin finding out about the personal life of an artist each time I really like their songs. I did listen to some chinese music as well.

Towards my end of senior high, my Sunday School teacher, Lilian Ang approached me and the youths in chruch often meet up to spend sometime together on a weekly basis. Suddenly, one day, I was forced into being the back up singer for a worship session and man, I don't sing in front of public... it was a big no no No! The only time I ever sung is in my bathroom or when no one at all was psychically near me. Having said that, they still force me into it, being a person who doesn't know how to reject, I tried but very shyly, almost muttering or talking when I'm singing. To my surprise, once they all stopped singing and the worship leader said, "Everyone stop singing, I just want to hear Simon's voice". She gave me the clearest mic with the loudest volume and I was like reading the lyrics with my head facing to the ground. Even when my high school mates conned me to Red Box Karaoke I'll never sing but spent my time laughing at their voice. It was hillarious and why I said conned? It's because of the Hong Kong TVB dramas, I thought they serve alcohols for lunch and girls for dinner in the karaoke center. Soon as time passes, I slowly get used to singing and became a worship leader for my church. I remembered the first time I worship led, I wrote down everything in a piece of paper which includes my prayers. I was nervous until I got up there, I felt peace in my heart, God was there for me, while leading many was smilling to me, even Pastor Joshua and my friends. I couldn't hold myself but to smile back with joy. I never thought God with Christian music can be so great. It was a fantastic experience that I'll never forget.

Jason Wade

After SPM, I did my foundation in APIIT KL, later on in HELP Damansara and currently in Metropolitan College, Subang Jaya. During this period, I gained countless friends, some remained, some went missing after sometime. I was exposed to various types of music like Jazz, Metal Rock, Ochestra, Contemparary Christian Songs, R&B, Rap, Hip Hop, Oldies, Love Songs and I still listen to them. I learnt how to appreciate all sorts of music in order to catch up with different people that walked into my life. Don't get the wrong idea, I still serve the church as a worship leader and love worshipping God in church all these while.

Alex Band

However after all these time, I came to a point where I begin to search myself what music I actually love deep within me. I read about many artist, watching their videos, two vocalist actually caught my attention, Jason Wade from Lifehouse band and Alex Band from The Calling. It's their voice, the type of music and passion that I can connect to. I pretty much like Ryan Cabrera also, but nothing really special about him. I used to spent a huge amount my time watching their live videos in studio, concerts, performance, personal life, childhood, anything and everything about them. Jason has this unique warm voice that reaches to many hearts and Alex? When I hear him sing, he sounds determined and strong. He was like a young cub raised up to be a lion reaching out to the world with music. This song you're listening in my blog now is Alex Band - Tonight, second song is Lifehouse - Everything, my current favorites. They are my source of inspiration in music. This is the music I love right now. Let the music search our souls.

Summer of A '07

I woke up in my comfort shell,
Memories of the past reveals my identity,
Those days wrapped with boxes and strings,
The summer serenade of a 07',

I used to be your shoulder,
A promise till you grow older,
When you cried and feel like it's over,
I was there till you're sober,

We used to laugh at each other,
How silly but we grew stronger,
In our little own small world,
Love was bonding our hearts together,

I used to walk you back home,
It breaks my heart when you're alone,
The times you told me it striked you,
Wishing I was your comforter,

I used to be your everything,
All of the things we gone through,
When I miss you I closed my eyes,
It's you I dreamt about all nite,

I could never forget that day,
How the monsters attacked us,
Blood shed and flowing tears,
An eternal separation from you,

Our hiding place has been wrecked,
Nothing was left, all dried up,
Let bygones be bygones,
Stay strong and loved without me,

The clock will never tick back,
The summer serenade of a 07',
A time in my life that was true,
I was once the happiest man.

Control

I spent my morning practicing this song, Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone). Finally, about an hour or so I managed to find the right voice to suite this song. This will be the presentation song for my worship lead session on the 27th July next month. All of you are invited to come, shoutout to Justin, Lynnett, Alvin(I came aite!), Evonna, Yiran, you guys better come. For those of you never heard of this man Jesus Christ, here's your chance to see what is it like. There's nothing better than seeing it yourself, so come and see. We are not trying to brainwash anyone, in fact as a fellow Christian I dislike it when someone does it. Get yourself expose, come again if you feel something is in store for you. Add me in MSN or email me and I will reply you as soon as possible(check the right column of the blog). My church is Petaling Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia, South East Asia, Earth xD. I finished typing the Goals and Preparation for the Youth Ministry in the afternoon before heading to the mall.

Right now, I'm blogging this as I just came back from a movie with Ivan Chong in Mid Valley. We watched "Wanted" and to my surprise, God spoke to me throughout the whole movie. I watched it with an uneasy feeling because why speak to me during a movie? It has been a month since God last spoke to me so much. This movie will be my personal best action movie because it's from God's selection, the storyline is not bad as well. Perhaps your interpretation would be different from mine after watching it, but here's what God told me. You are born into this world with nothing. What you see and what you live on and what you experience has shape you to what you believe, trust and hold onto in life.

Just like the movie, this young man (James McAvoy) who is fatherless led a life that is meaningless, a 9 to 5 office job as a Accounts Manager with a "skinny" boss and lives with his girlfriend in a house near a railway track. He thought his life was pathetic and empty, until one fine day, someone came to him and said she (Fox, Angelina Jolie) knew his father. His father was murdered by a man named Cross who betrayed the organisation of professional assassins, Fraternity. After a series of action packed life threatening incident, he was told that his destiny is to replace his father to kill Cross. He asked a question that all of us had or will ask sometime in our lives, Who Am I? And he was convinced that his destiny was fated to be an assassin. He was trained well, he was taught to gain control of his life, he was taught that if he believes in himself, he could do things that normal humans can't do.

And the Lord says this to me, my Son, in life there are many things that you thought was true, there are many things that the world makes you believe in, they claimed that you can be the God of your life, you can have control and temptations of many kinds will be sent to you till you struggle so hard to resist each of it. Can you distinct my voice from the world? Can you?

They, Fraternity believed that God has sent names to them thru a machine that generate codes to be cracked into names to be assassinated (to me, the machine represents God). Based on Fraternity's history, there was once a failed assignment of killing a target whose name was generated from the machine. Weeks later the target killed a man in front of his daughter. He was convinced that the names generated must die before something evil is bound to happen. Indeed as time passes, he became a great assassin and his long awaited assignment came, to kill Cross. His determination was filled with brutality, hatred, anger and it would take nothing to stop him from hunting this down man who murdered his father. The world will make you believe in things that you thought that was so real to you, to your naked eye, psycho you slowly like taking a sips of poison everyday until one day you feel numb and think you are in control of everything. What if one day the things you've hold onto for all your life is just a lie? Will you accept it?

There was a twist in the ending of the story, the young man assassinated Cross and found out that Cross was his real father. Cross was trying to protect this young man(his son) from the organisation since birth. He wanted his son to have a chance to lead a different life from what he experienced. He wanted him to feel how is it like to find his own family and be away from tasting blood, a different destiny. And it was revealed to this young man that Fraternity's head, Sloan's name was actually generated from the machine which meant, he was suppose to die some time ago. Sloan actually manipulated the whole organisation and generated the names from the machine by himself to control the fate of mankind. Sloan chose to be God himself. In the end, the young man assassinated every one in Fraternity and lived on.

If you do not know Me, you are a like lost sheep being directed by the wolfs. You will be deceived by the ways of man and lose everything just like how this young assassin gave his life for the temporary "faith" on earth. A questioned hit me, if God chose you to die today? What will your answer be? Will you be like Abraham or will you runaway like Jonah? Will you try to take over God like Sloan? He gave me this word to include in my testimony this coming 13th July, "Control".

Who is in... CONTROL?

We'll Make It Happen

This morning I woke and played basketball for an hour or two after a short jog. At 10am I head to the stalls near the factories for breakfast with Joshua, my church pastor that is. After that we head back to the church for further discussions. I told Joshua about my thoughts and plans for the youths in future. It's really amazing after hearing back from him. He shared to me something about the church(cannot reveal here, sorry) and he said I came at the right time. He just started training a few mentors. It's time to make a move and I was the missing link for the youths. I was pretty surprise at first after hearing his thoughts and indeed this is the perfect time to prepare and plan for the church.

Our church is undergoing a Revival and the people has started moving again. The conflicts were pretty much a smaller problem now and for the youth ministry I'm gonna to work for, we're targetting to get all the preparation done hopefully by the end of this year so we can start a new worship service, thats is for the youths! It's really awesome, today we've started a rough idea for the youth service, which includes Worship, Bible Study, Evangelism(reaching out to others), Fellowship and other activities. We're gonna go more in depth the next meeting after I finished my first task. If everything goes into plan and with God's grace, we'll be able to start in the beginning of next year or on the first quarter of 2009. Right now I'm going through the goals of the youth ministry and will be visiting more churches to come up with an attendees profile of youth churches, youth services randomly.

I'm so so so excited, with the upcoming 90 children from Boys Brigade(a program for the young ones in our church) that is soon to be in the youth group, we're gonna bridge them into our church and grow in faith and hopefully in numbers as well. Fantastic! And with the current youths we have, it's gonna be amazing. Will be calling up a lot of people from now on to come back and the existing youths to commit and have fun together building the youth ministry around this time. Will let as many people know when we are ready to launch this moment of history in church!

Thank you for the people who has prayed for Emmanuel Baptist Chruch and for me as well. God hears you loud and clear. Continue to pray and He will continue to do great great works in our lifes. Joshua and me could see now how God can really put things together like a rotten tofu being glued back together as a perfect piece xD. There's many things that we won't know how to acheive, however put all your trust and have faith in Him. In God's dictionary, there's no impossibilities. We will make it happen together!

I Will Remember You

Eight years later
Time goes by fast
Got my memories
And they will last
I try to keep it simple 'cuz I hate goodbyes
I try to keep it simple by telling myself that

I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you
I will remember you

We're a picture in my mind
And when I wanna find you
I just close my eyes
You'll never be that far from me
So don't say goodbye 'cuz
You'll never be that far from me
I'm telling myself that

I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you

You were there when I needed love and
Thank you, thank you
I never told you how much that meant
God thank you, thank you
I will remember you

Blinded

Each new day without failing the sun will rise and shine,
It's only if we see it or we're blinded by the storms,
Don't hide from heaven, don't stay in darkness,
Loneliness fills the emptiness inside if you choose to turn away,

Even when it rains, I assure you the light is still there,
We don't need to always see things with our naked eye,
Things beyond the human minds comes with great faith,
The very first man who flew had his own dreams,
Hope less for fire to burn from a lighting bolt,

Destiny has chosen you here today, right here, right now,
Wake up from your deep slumber sweet dreams,
Love awaits on the other side, away from countless sin and mortality,
It's time to make a move, fall back in sight of glory.

God's Love

*Meowww* It's been almost 3 months now. One night a cat came to me in the kitchen and started calling me. She's pregnant, I sense she must be pretty hungry and unable to find food with her current condition. Therefore I fed her with white bread and she quickly finished it up without hesitation. On the third night, when I brought her bread again, she didn't even bother to touch it. I was thinking hrm..... this cat is getting free food but wanna 'jual mahal' with me huh! Nevermind, went back the cupboard, took the biscuit box out and I gave her some Jacobs Cream Crackers dip in water. She ate it! Awesome, cats nowadays eats bread, eats biscuits etc. Sometimes I would save some fish for her. Soon it became a habit and a task for me to attend to her every night for dinner/supper. During the days where I'm not at home or teraccidentally forget or busy, sorry la cat, you're not my girlfriend or wive or God, you should know by now why I've never keep a pet by myself (they'll die sooner or later when I teraccidentally forget bout them).

About a month plus later, she gave birth to one or two kittens. She's orange and her babies are greyish/black. I was wondering where is their useless father who made her pregnant. The father, greyish/black would come with her sometimes to get food from me. There's a few times where she went into my house, into my bed room! I chased her out of the house, apa ni, that's trespassing! I'll hang a "Trespassers without permission with be shot without question" signboard soon! To my surprise, one night she brought in a baby kitten into my study room thru my bed room and hid there. Looks like it's all planned out already. As smart as the cat can be, she doesn't know about Queen of my house yet, Your Royal, Powerful & Naggy Highness, Queen Grande Mama. Talking speed = 100 hertz/s. My grandma got mad over this and took a big metal scissors, clipped the kitten's neck, nagging with passion, threw it to the fields. The kitten kept screaming in pain. Youch! I was withnessing it uncomfortably and continue using my computer.

Later the night the mother cat came to the window and kept meowwing me. She wants to get into my house thinking her baby was still in my study room. I was quite disturbed by it for an hour. Later I snuck out of the house to the fields and brought the baby kitten back to the mother. As soon as the baby kitten was back to the mother, what I was about to see really touches my heart. She was hugging the baby kitten closely to herself, kissing and caressing the baby kitten over and over again. It's amazing, the love she had for her young ones. I just stood there and was very please to see them together, the cat meowwwed while looking at me (it was thank you I suppose).

Now looking back into that night, it hits me back to my faith. If the mother cat can love her baby kitten so much, what is our Abba Father's love for us? Our Creator? Isn't God's love is the one who trully surpasses all and every earthly things? Isn't it amazing? And I really felt thankful for everything that has happened. Someone you can hold on to no matter what happens, someone who will be there for you all the time, someone who gives you your identity and guide you till the very end. You can never go wrong with Him.

During my sleep lately, sometimes I heard cats meowwing with excitment. Oh no!!! Are they planning to make more babies?!!! *Faints*

Guardian Angel

My handphone mirror cracked. I sat on the phone during camp and the strap was on top of it. First time using one. I thought rather than looking and keeping a nice metal strap in my drawer for months.... I guess it's not such a good idea for someone like me to use a strap after all, my phone!!! Unlengchified!!! By the way girls out there, guys don't use handphone straps! So if they like it or use it, it must be for someone. I had my Finance Corporate paper today. As usual, that slight twist in the questions makes me go cuckoo in the hall thinking whats the trick to it. *Prays* Pass me! Pass me! Two more to go! Something just hit me this afternoon, I wonder whats was on your mind after these months....

Like an angel from above,
I'm always watching you from afar,
Even if it's time and distance,
Near to my heart you'll be,

During the rainy days,
I pray God sends you an umbrella,
On your darkest days,
I wish the candle lights up for you,

When you are numb,
May soft touches make you feel,
And when you're tired and lonely,
I hope you'll be showered with blessings of love,

Even if it takes more patience,
Even sometimes it makes me breakdown,
Even when they thought I'm insane,
I will find my way to you, somehow,

Each and every nite I pray,
Peace will be upon you,
I'm always watching you from afar,
Like an angel from above.

God's Calling

I'm officially broke. Due to Ivan's party plans these 2 weeks. Well, he's back from the states after a few years so have to hang out. Spent some cash on a gift and paid for Rock camp fees, leaving a 10 dollar note resting in my skinny wallet. Overall, the camp was alright, Talent Time was fun. However, something special happened in the camp. God spoke to me, His calling was clear and loud, I felt it thru out the whole time in Golden Sands, the bits and pieces of the puzzle after this 2 months began to make sense. I've decided to respond to Him. Amen?

Departing from the Sands,
Carrying His command with me,
I walked again into the city,
Into a world of lost souls,

I heard the prayer,
A man of great strength I'll be,
Fear not of the coming days,
My son, you are under my wings,

I'll march on forward,
Opening my eyes with courage,
Leading the people into the light,
Lets all fly high for God!

Tagged by Jia Huei

Part 1: On the outside
~>Name: Simon Ng Sae Mun.
~>Date of Birth: 22nd February 1986, Hey you, yes you the one reading this, wish me ok!
~>Current Status: Single.
~>Hair Colour: Black. Last time, yellow, red, brown, can you imagine the wild side of me?!
~>Righty or Lefty: Righty, used to be a lefty too.
~>Zodiac Sign: Pisces, the romantic one.

Part 2: On the Inside
~>Your Heritage: Chinese, but often mistaken for other nationality such as Japanese, Mexican, mixed, INDONESIAN, PHILLIPINES, why?!
~>Your Fear: Whom shall I fear when I have God with me? Em.. besides tickling.

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
~>Your thoughts first waking up: Shall I go back to sleep?/Today's gonna be an awesome day! Good Morning Jesus!
~>Bedtime: Prayers, especially those whom I promised to keep them in prayers.
~>Your most missed memory: Chornological order aite.
~>A couple photo session with a crush in a photo machine. First time getting into a machine like that. It was fun and funny.
~>During The Click 5 concert when I exchanged smiles and stared into the eyes of a friend. It felt like time has stopped for a moment.
~>My first time worship leading. If American Idol Season Finale was Cook's "Time Of His Life", that was the time of my life.
~>First time clubbing with my mates, it was the best all guys dancing experience, we're not gays aite. Everyone was dancing with their own style strangely.
~>Stolen first kiss in the playground under night with stars. Guess I could never forget that.
~>My first birthday party in the kindy. Mum made me a bowling cake, I remember the cheer and excitement of celebrating birthday as a child.
~>Mum picking me up with her mini red car during kindergarden. "Mummy's here!"
There's plenty unforgettable, missed, cherished, memories, if you wish to know more.

Part 4: Your Pick
~>Pepsi or Coke: Both, but Pepsi Twist owns Pepsi.
~>Single or Group Dates: Both, sometimes it depends who is it.
~>Adidas or Nike: Nike, for the fish hook, for it's motto. Adidas is not bad too actually.
~>Lipton Tea or Nestea: Both, got difference eh?

Part 5: Do You...
~>Smoke: No.
~>Curse: Not really, erm... sometimes it just slips out.
~>Drink : Yeah, but not often.

Part 7: Have You Ever?
~>Played a stripping game: Like who strip the fastest?! Nope.
~>Changed who you were to fit in: Nope.

Part 8: Age
~>You're hoping to be married: 26 - 30

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
~>Best eye colour: Black/brown.
~>Hair colour: Black/brown/as long as it looks good.
~>Short or long hair: As long as it suites the girl.
~>Would like to add some stuffs here: Inner beauty matters a lot to me.. rather than looks alone.

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
~>1 minute ago: Chatting.
~>1 hour ago: Chatting.
~>1 month ago: Chatting, oh be quiet.

Part 11: Finish The Sentences
~>I love: Singing.
~>I miss : Singing.
~>I need: Singing, when are we going to Neway again?!

Part 12: Tag
~>Whoever who reads this, let me know when you've done yours aite.
~>List out 5 presents you wish for your upcoming birthday:
1. Friends.
2. Family.
3. Someone special.
4. God.
5. All of you must come/wish me aite, that would be the best present.

Wish You Were Here

So, you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell
Blue skys from pain
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl
Year after year
Running over the same old ground
What have we found?
The same old fears
Wish you were here.

Heart Speaks

It's always blue and bright, the sky covers over me. The gentle wind brushes my hair, feels like I'm blown into my day dreams again. Often I'll picture an imaginary friend playing with me in this yellowish field. I can see the birds looking for food for its precious nestlings, butterflies flying in pairs, this silent afternoon accompanied by nature's beauty. Now that it's long gone, sometimes when I drift into my dreams again, you came into my mind. I'm on fire when you're near me, I'm on fire when you speak to me, I'm on fire when you smile, guess I did love you somehow. However, time was your reason and I respected that. Now I'm given another chance to be near you, what should I do?

Greatest Story Ever Told

Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams
I could have prayed for
Here you are

If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad I'm your man

I don't hear the music
When I'm looking in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine

It's the way we touch, it soothes me
It's the way we'll always be
your kiss your pretty smile
you know I'd die for
oh baby
you're all I need

And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way

Then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
just how much I really need you

Did I tell you that I love you tonight
tonight